wah i was suffering during muggin hours at e concos. the fans were blowing hard on me, my stomach was feeling empty and uneasy, and the cold weather made me feel cold. (duh!) haa. and i didnt study much thru e hours. tsktsk. shall talk less and learn more! TLLM!

this day was rather (: yay!

234 hours left..

replies :D

turtle; i faint then who save e world.
jiewei; bo bian. i dun wan repeat j1.
jiayee; yea dat's stupid. go go jiayou! :D
minyi; thanks! long time no see~
eileen bunnyhop; walao molest me. i paiseh leh. ><
jiamin; ok lo. s13 ma.. x)

my mugging hours before promos. it's like 60 days to promos, and i'll study 4hrs per day (at least!) this will push me to study lahs, and it's always good to have a target. anyone dare to chase this dream wif me ? see who has more hours wif our notes, tutorials. it's like a friendly competition. (:

and im not gonna tink of relationship stuffs until promos have ended. it's like a sweet distraction u see. takes up too much of my time.

240 hours left..

i was too tired to blog ytd. as usual my day sucked. i do not know y. maybe cos of dat concos incident. felt better after a nap during gp lesson. pe was way cool than before. mr hiap rocks!

it's meet-e-parent session after my co practice. given new pieces of scores, bud i felt so useless. i couldnt comprehend the scores fast enuff and produce the best symphony. i shd practise more. m-e-p session was alright, bud e HOD keep suaning me, in a decent manner.. as in keep putting me down continously. nvm. i'll study hard i promise. i'll sacrifice anything to get promoted. like today.. i neva jio anyone out for pool leh. world record liao.

i wad damn late for tuition today. e bus came after half an hr. *** recently i was late for lotsa events. so sorry bout that. i used to be e earliest for meetings, bud now vice versa. shucks. i'd be damn guilty if i were to be late for dates lah. bud i was neva late for dates, girls always take a long time. =x

i wanted to study after my nap at 2pm. bud i woke up at 5pm. kns.

btw, some funny math qns.





REPLIEEEEES.

jiamin; i went to concos to study.
nessa; hello! thanks for e book yea.
shihua; ya lo. i pon for 2wks liao. =x

i was damn tired e whole day. maybe cos ytd ran lots. 80% of e class went for math olympiad, and e rest was dilly dally-ing. i walked off to concos and settled down to mug instead of staying in e hall for assembly. nobody in s12 was there i suppose. sorry, i dun realli like to waste time and having no destination.

pw sucked. mooi cant teach for nuts. he jus practically reads from e notes and talked MATH! *** still say "wah.. ur class got notes one, mine dun have" i tink pillow's class damn suay lo. no wonder she kept complaining. and for 15min he disappeared. i tink he go canteen makan.

ohh yea i feel that some girls are so temperamental lahs. bud i uds nobody is perfect.

zoey's funny nick --[ Twinkle Twinkle little star, You should know what you are, And once you know what you are, Mental hospital is not so far. ] she damn cute lah. hahaha.

ohh btw.. she (not zoey) surely know magic!! =))))

REPLIES
jiamin; yea mus work hard. dun wanna sia suay myself again.
turtle; eeyer. got pimple one. not perfect. haha!
pillow; from past experiences it'd turn out bad wad. hmmz.

eileen bunnyhop for entertaining and cheering me up. i realli needed that. xie xie ni. all e best on stage tml! :D

during one of my many breaks today i went to ao1's table to gossip wif e ao1 girls. gradually the topic was on me. they were making guesses about who SHE is. i was so afraid that history would repeat.

rmb few yrs back i said smth wrong and my buddies accused me of falling for wanting. NO LO. budden they teased and teased until i so ps when i see her lo.

suddenly i felt so irritated by hy and xy that i jus left e table. ok if they guess correctly, this would spread and my hopes will be shattered cos she'd be irritated (most prolly) and if they guess wrongly, i'd feel uneasy toward the "wrong person"

pls dun be so kpo alry can. i have my own plans. pls dun spoil everything. i still wan my fren. im quite serious bout relationships toward frens so pls dun make me lose one. i cant afford.

CO practice was terrible. i felt that my skills dipped by alot bud jimmy said i was too nervous. maybe. mr yang took my bangdi w/o asking. walao. buay pai seh. i realli have alot to work on. i was fucking irritated by the attitude of yanli and huiyi (s12's, not pillow) on my way back to sch they were heading out. i asked y they didnt go practice and hy chio lan at me. yanli didnt even looked at me. ** i see her face damn ** lah. for wad fuck dao me. gave me excuses like nidda do cip, will practise at home, fri go liao. ***! ** lame excuses can! u're such disappointment. im ashamed to be in e same class wif both of you. sorry. bud i realli this way.

REPLIESSSSSSSS

shihua; i wouldnt tell anyone. sorry
cynthia; not abit interested in astro. =x
turtle shan; then next time i spill hot water loh.
soohuey; yea sure win.
yukee; hahah.
karen; i wouldnt tell anyone. sorry
eileen bunnyhop; i wouldnt tell anyone. sorry

when i thought my day was going to end terribly, you came and turned it all around. thanks. you looked great today, and every other days. (:

from pool. today kana thrash. =( i tink i onli won one game in 2hrs? dunno why la. so not used to losing more than 2games in a row. heh. i saw bel there too! longtimenosee!

collected s.H.e's forever ytd. i onli find chu dian nice, like realli nice! the rest are ok onli. maybe takes time to like it ba.

started econs tuition this morning. it's ok. simon gave notes! wow. and qns next wk. i'll get lotsa practice, i'll pass promos then! wee.

recommending wilber's zhao mi (track 11). u wan pm me. i SING for you. =p

ohh ya. this morning i went to ntuc and bought 20bucks of biscuits, chocolates, sweets etc. for after sch muggin hrs! (:

REPLIES~

soohuey; long story. sports day run faster!! we mus win!
jw; where got. i still LOVE 5N. and s.l.a.p
cynthia; yea co rocks! quit astro lah. come over.
jiamin; sure i'll work hard. prove to everyone that pjco is good.
turtle; still nid u to teach mehhhh =p
jiayee; u cant help. she not from POLO! ahaha!

pls help me get rid of these unwanted feelings. im afraid that i'd jeopardise another frenship, i'd lose another good fren. and wif these kns results i shd concentrate on muggin right.

i dreamt of her last night, also the night before. i wonder why. bud recently i've been taking xtra glances at her for sure. she looks cuter and prettier as time passes. plus some other feelings and stuffs which i tink arent apt to blog about. oops.

this isnt infatuation i know. cos a couple of mths ago i dun realli feel much for her. plain frens. now she's constantly on my mind. i dunno whether i shd (: or ):

REPLIES!

pillow; wear outside then SEXY.
nessa; iszit. buy b&j's ice cream for ur b'dae present lohhhhh.
soohuey; yeah. the applause was WOW!
jw; we last min go de. and u go oso xtra. heh.
shihua; yea! next yr we'll get gold! (:

i tink we did well. we got a hundred times more applause than wad we got at fajar lah. yummy! the 1st time when we can realli showcase ourselves in school. shiok man. there were some minor flaws lah.. bud i doubt many ppl noticed it. overall it's good! i giv it 8.5/10 wahhaa. matsuri's still e best! pjco rocks rocks rocks!! ok~ say say say!

happy retirement to j2s!! byebye woodwinds. stanley, yanni, liching, weihua, siwei, hongsheng, phoebe. all the best for a's! (:

watched potc after performance at lot1. nice lah. cap sparrow was hilarious.

enuff bloggin; back to eom. zz.

i shd be happy. bud too tired to be. glad to know dat siwei and phoebe are performing on wed. now onli left hongsheng. hmmz. i can psycho him for sure!! then woodwinds will be in full strength. ppl jus be prepared to be stunned by pjco!! they added matsuri in.. my fav piece. let's bring down e house!!

rainbow rings on my toes!

the fried egg xiaoyun cooked for me!! thanks ar. so touching.

my frigde's nicest food.

joe's aslp. my tongue's out.

i guess the sun doesnt like me. saw the bright sunlight when i was half-awake on my bed, i thought "wow, nice day to tan!" it rained meows and woofs. !#£$%^&* change of plans. kbox instead. klunch became more x.. -.-" waalao. and 3hrs wasnt enuff for me lahs. lovestory, guamuxiangkan and huanrixian was today's fav. heh.

today's phy tuition sucked. cos i dun realli uds how to get the ans. tsk. hopefully i'll uds better after pj released the notes for gravitation.

thanks guys. im kinda fine alry.. i jus hate to be so dependent. it's like my fate is on other ppl's hands. not jus performance, bud in other aspects as well. i'll still continue to persuade the j2 woodwinds, it's my responsibility. i know in the NEAR future i'll be fine w/o u guys. one jus needs to learn how to be independent. and my onli way's to improve my skills.. lots, and fast. not much time left..

caught superman wif tengteng and karen this morning. the show was not bad. 8/10 i suppose. bud je's cinema realli cmi larhh. poked wif yude and wk. i felt i improved again. altho it's been awhile since i play. gr8 stress-reliever!!

thought of something IRONY today. a couple of days ago i unintendedly blurted CB out cos matt and eugene disturbed me. then half the class go OR-HOR~ as if i've committed a sin.

in fuhua i was one of the more guai guys in class, as there were ppl who contain vulgarities in EVERY line of their sentences. we 5N were accustomed to this yea? bud now s12's making such a big deal bout it. im not used to it. it's like 5N eat chicken everyday, and s12 eats chicken onli during CNY. get the comparision? nevamind. i know im wrong.. im trying to kick e habit. sorrie s12. shdnt teach u all bad. =p

OWL POST!!

jw; he's realli good lah. bud i still support ARSENAL!
yukee; chilled alry. i slept in e freezer last nite. =p
bunnyhop; thanks for support and reminder! (:
nessa; okies.. thanks ar.
karen; yea.. life goes on.. so does tuition!! haha.
bamboo; yea.. it's evolution.

now the j2s are giving me prob, they dun wanna perform. DAMN. wad's wrong wif 13th july lah!!! i thought woodwinds are united, enthu bout performances?! now it's e perfect time to showcase our performance right! we've alry left that BRONZE standard, cant we show the college that PJCO have e potential to get gold? utterly disappointed. jus one day to perform.. iszit too much? dun u feel anything for our orchestra?

studies, friends, cca.. it seems like i have probs in all areas. who would understand. y cant i jus drop all responsibilities and be the happy jianjun that i used to be? too much.. these are jus too much to handle.

can u feel my world. =(((((

it has realli been a bad day for me. im having headaches for these few days in sch. i dunno why. i dun tink i lack of slp. stressed out perhaps.

my results are finalised.
H2 math - U
H2 econs - U
H2 physics - O
H1 gp - D
H1 mt - A
H1 gsc - B

failed all my h2 subjects. main subjects. i shd go and bang wall. no. i shd ask U to bang wall, i'll get A next time round.

been asking myself did i took e right path. all the 5N ppl are like enjoying their lives. their sch days are like our holiday. u get the comparison? nvm if u dun. i did study for mids. completed all my holiday assignments and practices. no reason i'd fail, bud i did.

i used to be one of e best in class during sec sch, but now im like one of the worst. arghhhh!! i realli feel stupid in class.

i feel like i dun have free time anymore. 24/7 i tink about studying studying studying. fuck. im realli scared that i would retain. consequences are terrible. i would rather jus die. now i get more and more paranoid. when others are doing work and im not, i get nervous. im scared that i'll jus fall behind.

and i tink s12 still SUCKS. realli. altho it has improved.. some ppl still cant get along!! wad the fuck is wrong lah! y i can get along wif all bud u couldnt. this class is realli not for me. i miss AO3.. lots. i read archives of some blogs, and thought of our happy days tgt. ao3 was one. united. fun. perfect.

i tink i kb enuff. sorry for this unhappy post. shall get on wif life.

i wanted to blog bud suddenly i dunno wad to write. somehow these few days tire me out seriously. new pe teacher rocks, super friendly. im getting over my results and carry on wif life.. a mugger life i suppose. i tell myself not to watch anymore tv.. except superband or smallville.

during co we practised jiu ge.. which is our piece for syf 2007. fa is so difficult to blow la. opposes moments priciple. kaoz. have to overcome it nevatheless. if u wan this song pm me in msn.. i send u. :D

MMC spoilt. corrupted. tmd. hmmz. and c.ronaldo is staying in man utd. lol. random.

REPLIES!!

pillow; then i love henry lo.
bunnyhop; u did abit better. go go jiayou!
nessa; jiayou too. let's pon e camp!

wc finals was super exciting!! me cd and ellson were at chevrons. during e penalty shootout my hands were shaking lah. lol. henry was powerful. zidane tsktsk. italy's corners were deadly.

help me. teach me. love me.

math F
econs F

impressive. now im realli getting the butterflies.. BUT IT TAKES MORE THAN THESE TO PUT ME DOWN.

work hard

for mum, who slogged her days away FOR ME.
for my future.. my wife, my kids and my career.
for the dreams i live for.
to shock those who look down on me.
for the sensation of getting As

FOR SURVIVAL.

REPLIES!

pillow; sorry i dun go for acb. onli c.
jiayee; thanks ar. always so encouraging. :D
yukee; nvm lah. good game. realli. acb = act cute bi*ch. ahaha.
xianyee; italy was good.
shihua; i dun support italy. i dun realli know e ppl. buffon! hha.

friday - failed math. 19/65. whooping failure i know. i tink e onli way's to practice lots. shall complete all my hw on time. bah. dun wanna tink bout it nemore. pw presentation was bad. john gave us realli good comments. he's great lahs. had fnn class outing to turf city for steamboat. saw alot of classmates. brought back lotsa memories. xiaoyun even fried an egg for me lah.. thanks dude. upload the pix next time.

sat - morning had performances at fajar sec. was nice initially bud it became boring as we had to perform everything again 3x, at different times. sian-ed. but their sch de bkshop is POPULAR bkshop leh!! cool huh. even the shopkeeper wears popular uniform. ahaha. angela asked me to carry her yangqin back to co room. DAMN IT WAS SUPER HEAVY!! she promised to treat me sweets. =x evening went for billiards. i still suck at it. my highest score was 20+ i tink.. and lowest was -30+ or wad. dat night's score. i still prefer pool.

sun - woke up late for tuition. shucks. i tink my alarm spoil or wad. late for ytd and today. wth. iris say i shou le. walao. not again. yea my appitite isnt good lately. bud i dun wanna go on slimming down!! tonight's wc finals. hopefully FRANCE gets it. wahaha. so many ppl cant go sch to watch tonight. disappointed. nvm. jus watch at home ba.. );

REPLIES!!

von; thanks, bud it got better alry. hopefully it doesnt come back
jw; i tink both of us recovered! ur stupid nightmare healed urs. =x
karen; i read ok i tink. my conversation sucked. i wasnt myself.
pillow; acb oso cute ok. haha! u forgot ur identity here!
xianyee; update liao. u then acb. =x

woke up in e middle of e night to watch. first time. abit sian cos whole match onli got one goal. zz. ribery was good. c.ronaldo cried in the end. hmmz. me and ruishan were talking bout soccer and noodles during e match! ahaha. funny.

mt oral wasnt realli good. hope i can still get my Distinction. see lah! not enuff slp results in poor performance. complacent lah jianjun. =p

stanley wans me to play matsuri's beginning.. which is solo. im not sure if im up to it yet. it'd be style if i solo. wow.

mi xue wei qi's jus introduced a new album, princess. rmb a couple of yrs ago i used to like michelle so much. she's quite cute in kissy mv rmb. now i dun tink i like her as much. bud she's still cute. not as cute as HEBE tho.

REPLIES;;

von; jus stating a fact. SORRIE MUM. i still love you. :D

pillow; yarh.. hebe freak here. wanna join?

nessa; i tink u're secretly following me. hmmz. *beware*

is now a torture for me every night. my back jus aches like hell when i wake up every morning. wad's fucking wrong wif it lah. every night i dun wanna slp.. cos this painful procedure will repeat itself. i tink it has worsened after i came back from OBS. i dunno wad to do. hope it's nothing serious.

had a hard time fixing the ethernet pci card into my ancient cpu last night. mum was so irritating, kept giving useless comments as tho she knows a lot bout coms. moreover, whenever i do smth she will ALWAYS say "NI HUI MA?!" "NI KE YI MA?!" in a arrogant look-down-on-ppl tone. since young she has been liddat, having absolutely no confidence in her onli child. this may explain y im always lacking confidence since young. until recent yrs i kept pushing and encouraging myself. otherwise i may jus become an introvert and one day bang against the wall and perish. BUT NO. im SUPERMAN.

argh. s12's going to sentosa tml. bud i'll be stuck in sch for gsc paper and co practice. hmmz. the latter will still be more impt obviously. performanceS are coming!! shall show my best.

u heard hebe's new song on 933? sang tgt wif fei lun hai. im somehow VERI ATTRACTED to her voice (as usual)!! i dunno wad magic she has.. bud if i personally know her i'd go after her for sure! :D

yea u heard that!! henry scored to take france 1-0 into semifinals!

watched e 2 matches at swee's hse with some other 5N peeps. was quite nice hanging round wif em again. eng-port match was abit boring. roo's siao as usual, lampard and gerrard disappoint.

henry's goal was vital. zidane played realli well. MOTM. byebye brazil. wahahah. france will again win.. by beating portugal!!

slept for 2hrs before heading over to iris's hse for meeting. till now.. it's still going on, bud i came back for tuition lah. at night still have to chiong pw. wth. i seriously worn out.

REPLIES,,

huiyi; dimple how can disappear? impossible. unless u're hermione granger.
jiayee; thanks. so sweet of u. treat u eat lollipops. :D
von; ya lah! damn er xin..
jill; err.. tell chengda and hansong bah! wahaha.
nessa; not sian one ar, vanessaQ!!

it meant the time period where i bballed at jscc!! the 5N guys were damn funny la.. luff until peng. my all-star team was all star!! i was thierry henry, yude was ronaldo, hansong was gerrard. kinwang pronounced it as GEE-RARD. for dat i laughed until nearly muscle cramp sia!! more ppl came, chengda was crouch, zhenhui was carlos. BAH!

anw mids's nealy over. and i missed first episode of new season of SMALLVILLE. shucks. =(( on an irrelavant note, i tink my pw grp rocks! go jianjun, shumin, yvonne, huimei !!

music is the best thing on earth.

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